at a standstill... to regroup .

I have been on medical leave for two to three months due to the sports injury and have not been going out for some time, except to a relative's house when I wish to stay overnight for several days to recuperate so that my grandmother, aunt and myself can keep one another company when there is nobody else in my house in the daytime. I'm glad to be able to spend more time with my aunts and beloved grandma, because I have always been trying to share the gospel with my loved ones whenever opportunities arose.

A few people offered to visit on different occasions, and I thank God for them: Cat, jm, Yeeping, SC, T, Sandy, Cyrus, Mdm H, and an ex-classmate Alvin who insisted on coming all the way to my place to hand-deliver his wedding invitation card (even though I told him that I would not be able to go because of my injury) because he wanted to see how I was and to chat with me in person. So sweet! I also kept in touch with a few other friends via the telephone or internet in order for us to encourage one another.
Also helped the church with script-writing a trailer for the upcoming Christmas production (sent the script to the team leader, Bernnise, via email as requested by her).

In accordance with my physiotherapist's instructions, I do a set of physiotherapy exercises two to three times a day indoors.
Each session takes more than one hour since I want to be diligent and disciplined about it. Discipline has been a bit of a problem, though I have improved in disciplining myself now as compared with the first week. During each session, I feel tired and bored. After each session, I feel more tired and bored. Usually, I take a nap after each session because it is hot, tiring and boring. :)

It's not advised to go out to certain places yet since I'm still on medical leave, especially to places where one may slip or re-injure the leg as we know that it's easy to re-sprain the foot during this time and that would set back the recovery to square one and may lead to longterm recurring injury (and then whose fault would that be?)

Thank God that He has helped me find ways to reduce the monotony of the long physiotherapy exercises:
- I join my parents and younger brother in watching television shows and though I am not an avid fan of TV, it helps in family bonding.
- On the days that I'm in my relatives' house, I join my grandmother and aunts in watching their shows.
- Praying (but I really need to do more of this.... I know that I really could have been more faithful in prayer during this period of time.... )
- Listening to sermons / messages pre-downloaded from the internet while doing my exercises.

Mindful that it is no point reading books or listening to messages if I do not spend time reflecting & evaluating what I read or hear and asking God what He wants me to learn through the message.

Thus, I write in my journal (not this blog) the more personal reflections & applications for my life.

For example, God has brought up some old issues in my heart that I have to resolve to a greater degree than I ever have... More breakthroughs are on the horizon and God wants to do an even greater work in these areas in my life.

While the aggravated injury was partly due to my own fault, I know that God has allowed for this standstill in my life for me to regroup my resources.. and He hopes that I will emerge stronger, more secure in His love and fitter for service than ever...

Why is it not so easy?